Aura Hai
Personal reflections on life, creativity, and growth.
You are afraid that you may not be able to present your idea well.
Everytime i try to present my startup idea, there is always resistance. I feel that i may not be able to explain. And not being in a position top explain in simple terms to others is a huge -ve.
What my mom would think if i stay up late at night.
I guess this is a feeling every indian kid will have in their head. Everytime you stay up late you fell to inform your parents where you are, or they call u to find your whereabouts.
I should improve my storytelling skills.
One of my worst skills. You know what they say "You need to do many times to become good at it". Guess i have to start telling more stories. Consiously put efforts to make the stories better.
Posted 2 videos at the same time.
I feel kinda anxious about that coz i feel what people is gonna perceive about me.
Accountability Problem.
I dont feel accountable to anyone or anything. I'm just drifting in this ocean called life.
Im incapable of building anything completely.
I always get bored in between and switch to a different one. There is no sense of consistency and perseverence.
Feels Good to communicate with her What i feel.
I was thinking of leaving coz i thought that would be the right decision. But later i realised that, staying will be more challenging and like challenges :)
I just have to be me when im recording.
I always try to overcomplicate, trying to make the video better by making it more animated. Hoping that its going to be engaging. But in reality its not doing much good. I have to be the way i am in videos.
Why should anyone give a fuck about what i say in videos.
In this age where everyone dying to get attention, what will i do to make them stop scrolling and watch my video.
Deep Appreciation.
Deep appreciation for how far i have come. Not everyone made it this far. But here iam. Deep Appreciation for all my friends and family members, i would be here without all of them.
I feel Devastated.
I feel devastated for putting my parents in this position. I can give them a far better life. EVerything is fucked. But i can dig myself out of this. Not a problem.
Progress is very slow.
In a very long time i feel like im lagging behind. In everything. I have to push the limits. I have potential. Im not utilising it in a good way. I have what it takes to be the best. Im the best.
Risk is my middle name.
I take such huge risks that i feel very excited. But if things go south, it could potentially kill me. It is exciting, but challenging at the same time. I dont want to leave this state of constant thrilling.
Beating myself down and not giving credit to myself.
I always dont give credit myself for doing something good. I think that the moment i give credit i become complacent. But that is not true. REcently istarted appreciating every second of my life, and it feel liberating.
Decision Paralysis.
Sometimes i get overwhelmed by the decisions i have to take. And i enter this state of stillness. Where i dont do anything, i just shuttle between different decisions. I feel like i can do it by there is resistance.
Group co working was transformational.
Doing co working with friends(fookers) was transformational. I felt like i was doing meaningful work after a long time. If not for that, i would have never pushed the limits. Way to go!